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Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Dedicated to one of my dearest friends: Eliana

4 weeks of holidays in June was such a boring and tiring one.
Tiring as in, i had 2 weeks of attachment.
Boring as in, 2 weeks of half-rotting away at home.
You guys are probably thinking that: Can't you go find your friends or something??
Well friends.
Some went back to malaysia.
One went to Sydney.
Some were working.
Others having attachment.
Anyways, i got stuck at home.

Facing the TV all day at home is seriously... boring.
Went to visit the 'block-cats', but seriously! The weather. The heat. The humidity. It almost killed me.
Went back to school a few days.
Went out with Janet.
Went out myself.
Packed my box, like AGAIN and AGAIN.
That 2 weeks, all i wished was for school to start.
Not the homework part though.
...
3 weeks later.
It's the second week of term 2 of school.
I have a whole long list listing assignments, project stuff, dates of quizzes and exams.
Not just school stuff are bothering me though.
Friends. Groups. Classmates.
Teases. Quarrels. Disagreements.
So much to be bothered.
Facing so much of these.

Cold windy weather outside.
Comforter and pillows.
Dim lights.
My own room.

It would all be perfect.

11:18 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I am back to this same exact computer as my last post.
In school right now du-uh, but no lessons.
3-hr break. I HATE MY TIMETABLE SERIOUSLY.
I mean like, seriously!
They could try to push up those lessons and just give us like a 1-hr break, and at least we can go home earlier.
...
Decided to postpone this post.
It's getting a little crowded in here.
Coughcough...
Poof.

8:02 PM

40 more minutes to my last 2-hr lesson of the day! :D
I ate my lunch at 12pm, and now i am feeling hungry again.
How is that possible?!
Anyways.
This post is kind of about 'Nata-de-coco' (it's just a nickname for someone).

Okay.
I don't mean to like, gossip.
But its just so... UGH!
Everytime i think about that person, I feel so pissed off.
Like, say for that time during a lesson in class.
More specifically: That person was in MY class. We are both in different classes.
Anyway, that person was in my class and i don't know why.
And the teacher welcomed her in a way to practise with us because they know each other apparently.
And that person went straight to her friends (okay, that person is a girl.).
AND APPARENTLY, HER FRIENDS IN MY CLASS ARE ALL THE GUYS IN MY CLASS.
There's just 3 guys in my practical class. And total of 14 people in my practical class.
(Feel like i'm going nowhere.)
In my practical class, there are beds with mannequins on them (cos i am a nursing student??).
So unfortunately, the mannequin that my group was practising with was right beside theirs.
At that time i was still fine. Like, i was thinking: "Why is there a stranger in my class? But i'm not gonna care."
So i just continuing practicing, with my teacher occasionally coming my group to seesee a bit.
Well, my teacher actually advised her to join other groups because her group already had 4 while there is one 2 persons group.
(Am i messing everything up? SORRY.)
Okay, so in my group that day, i was like the assessor and my friend was the student nurse. And i'm supposed to correct her if she skips any of the steps in the practice.
So all the while, i could feel her staring at us. LIKE, WHAT'S HER FREAKING PROBLEM?
And when i turn to face her nonchalantly, she quickly turn back and started giggling with the guys. SO WHAT IF SHE KNOWS THEM?! She is such a flirt!!! I DON'T CARE. AND READERS: I. AM. NOT. JEALOUS.
And the guys. I am like, just a funny classmate to them. We are not like, super close or anything.
And i can sense that SHE was speaking bad of us in front of them because of their whisperings and giggles. Like, what's their problem!!!
I feel like screaming right now. But the computer screen is right in front of me and i don't wanna be so bad to break it.

It's like, she can be so proud and flirtatious in front of guys! And then love to brag and show off this 'social act' in front of other girls to ... make them jealous?! THIS IS STUPID SERIOUSLY.
And she likes to gossip right in front of people she gossiped about. Like, what's this world.
And I WOULD LOVE TO GIVE HER A BLACK EYE IF SHE ROLL HER EYES AT ME AGAIN.
Grrrrr. Sounds so violent.

Okay i have to stop blabbering and venting on this poor keyboard, and also stop giving glares to the computer screen.
Byebye.

12:17 AM

Sunday, April 24, 2011

In class right now.
Gonna post a short one.
Wakakakaka.
This librarian...
What's the point of teaching us how to find articles in ALL databases in the school library's website?
You are making me sleep honestly.
I would rather tweet please. :D
OKAY. She keeps coming here.
So bye my readers.
I gotta poof off.
But.
I will be back.
*poof.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. She went off again.
Feel like spamming.
But spamming on a blogpost?!
That's so crazy.
Seriously. I am having some 'high' problem right now.
OK. Byebye.

8:42 PM

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Sorry for not blogging recently!
Time during holidays seems to pass so much faster.
Gonna start my attachment on this coming monday.
Feeling pretty nervous and jumpy.
I don't know why.
Hoping my CI is nice and friendly.
Hoping that the next 3 weeks will be over fast.
Hoping my other small wish will be granted.
Byebye.

7:34 AM

Sunday, March 13, 2011

What is with her and hair?
This really piss me off sometimes.
Her POV of 'cleanliness' is really... ridiculous in a way.
I know i may sound really bad, but it's the truth.
I mean, not allowing a strand of hair to be seen?
That's crazy, i mean, seriously.

The past few days at home, being bored and seriously nothing to do,
i glued my pair of eyes on my tv.
Well, it wasn't really that lame and all.
But i felt like i gained a lot of unknown knowledge, through my deep-thinking mind and all.
Okay i don't know what i'm saying.
But yeah.
And, deep-thinkers ARE sensitive people.

I feel like a lazy ass.
And i feel a little weak.
Obviously, from those few hours sitting in front of the tv everyday when i am at home.
And my appetite is growing.
I've been eating and eating and eating.
But the food are all unhealthy, so there is no point.

I feel like i'm blabbering right now.
Wanna listen to music.
And really have to revise for my korean class.
Byebye.

Can you just tell me how you feel? Because i can't read minds.

Being still and doing nothing are two very different things.

Excuses are lies.

Smiling doesn't mean that you're happy.

7:17 AM

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

In a mood for a shopping spree again :)
Been so bored at home for the past few days!
UGH.
I think i complain about holidays being bored more than school life so busy.
Well i think Rebecca and Huiyi are coming over on saturday.
Hmm thinking of going out alone tmr.
Feel like hanging out in a bookstore for an hour or so.
Miss hitting the library with Ramlah and Eliana.
SIGH.
When am i gonna meet them?
Miss them lottttttts.

Need to search for inspiration too.
Wanna go SPCA so much.

BORED. *shouts*

4:45 AM